I have been meaning to get back to writing on this little blog of mine, but the last 2 months have been super stressful. The loss of Bosco was not something Pat or I were in the least bit prepared for and it totally broke my heart into a million pieces. We had to make the extremely hard decision to put our baby to sleep just days before we had to pack up our old house and get ready to move into the new house.
We found out in early October that Bosco had a large growth in his stomach after he had an ultrasound done. The vet was not sure if they would be able to remove it because the growth was so large and after they attempted to remove it, they learned that it was in fact too large to be removed (it was attached to all of his organs and he would have bled to death) and that the growth was cancer. After that attempted surgery, he developed problem after problem – his diabetes was affected, the wound where they cut into his stomach became infected, and he started with a fever of 104 days before we had to make the decision to put him to sleep. The vet told us that the type of infection he had would become excruciatingly painful to him in matter of 36 hrs. and that the inside of his organs were septic. They did not think he would live through the surgery to clean out the sepsis and said if he did, they did not think he would be able to recover from the surgery. So we decided we both couldn’t put him through any pain and made the hard decision to put him to sleep. We both held him through the process and to say it was the hardest thing we ever had to do would be an understatement.
I miss him every single day and will never totally get over his loss – he was absolutely like a child to us. It is still hard to believe that it has been over a month since I was able to kiss his cute little face for the last time.
While it was extremely hard to have to pack up our house and move just several days later, I am in some way thankful the move was so soon after his loss because being so busy helped to keep our minds busy. The old house also held too many memories of Bosco for me. I still think of him every day and will NEVER forget him for as long as I live, but it was honestly painful to be in each room without him there.
Pat and I have now been in the new house for about a month and we’ve been so busy trying to make the house ours. I thought I would share some progress we have made so far, so get ready for picture overload.🙂
Our formal living room:
Baby’s room so far:
The first big picture hung in the new house:❤
I would say we made pretty great progress in just a month considering how much stress we had.
I am 25 weeks pregnant today (and definitely feeling SUPER pregnant already). I just want to have everything done with the house before baby girl is here. 🙂
I will talk to you guys soon! 🙂 Until then, feel free to follow me on Instagram. XOXO